sitting here tonight thinking

I hate what happened to me. I hate the effect it had on my daughters and other relationships. I hate divorce. I don't understand it.  Maryam comes here and I don't get to see her.  My ex is going to see her. I don't get to. I miss her more than anything. I have always been there for all my family. I tried very hard to make sure they have a good and comfortable life. I wanted to make sure they knew they were loved. I pray that my family loves the new family members. If I had any affects on my children they have a big heart and are kind and loving. New chapter has started in my life that doesn't mean others have closed. Just like I never unlove anyone I pray and I have faith that our lives will be full of love,  happiness and acceptance