sitting here tonight thinking

I hate what happened to me. I hate the effect it had on my daughters and other relationships. I hate divorce. I don't understand it.  Maryam comes here and I don't get to see her.  My ex is going to see her. I don't get to. I miss her more than anything. I have always been there for all my family. I tried very hard to make sure they have a good and comfortable life. I wanted to make sure they knew they were loved. I pray that my family loves the new family members. If I had any affects on my children they have a big heart and are kind and loving. New chapter has started in my life that doesn't mean others have closed. Just like I never unlove anyone I pray and I have faith that our lives will be full of love,  happiness and acceptance

new phase of life

It was like we knew each other for years  I felt so comfortable with her. We talked and laughed and really enjoyed each other  I never had a doubt but I was sure now that she is the one for me  godsend. It was an instant hit with the whole Family. Especially shey  I came back to process the petition.   I know I have new hope and happiness

how things change. how people change

Tonight I sit here deep in thought. I was so lonely and no hope or real joy in life a few months ago. A while back I had met a woman online. Queenie. She is from phillipines. From the srart I had a feeling she was special. Pure heart  very kind. She had inner strength and resolve.  We talked online and on skype. I trusted her. That took a lot after every thing I had experienced
 In the last few years. I started to develop feelings for queenie. At one point she told me she had feelings for me too. I went to phillipines the end of January and spent 3 great weeks with queenie,  her daughter Shey and the family